Its a struggle….but Im praying for him

I don’t know what goes on in his mind, but I think I have an idea from what people and HIM tell me. I love em no matter what you know? and like…imma do what ever it takes to make sure he is heading on that right path. So today, we made our one month right? so we figure we just kick it in his room. But lord and behold, the grandma got suspicious and stuff. So she checked and saw me in there. Yea and you know what happens next right? hahaha I gotta go and jord gets kicked out. But the thing is, its BOTH our fault. The first day I met his grandma, she set out rules. SIMPLE rules you know? and like yea I guess you can say that we broke them. But only tonight. We never even did anything that bad. BUT I could understand the anger and pain she had inside when she saw me in his room while he went to go and move the car. I can’t blame her you know? So yea I had to leave and jord gets kicked out. Now, ever since being withb him for a month, I have notice things both great and bad. Its typical right? lol You will find things you don’t like and like about your other. You will find things that worry about your other and you need to let them know about it. WHY? because you care and love them so much. So there is this one thing that I really don’t like about him. Its when he yells at elders and his grandparents. Even answers them back. But the thing is? I can’t tell him what to do and stuff. Not because Im younger then him but also because I don’t know what he’s been through. All I know is that he had a hard previous life and that he chose wrongly on how to handle it and stuff. Thats about it lol. So I told him my mind in the car when we were at my house and all. I thought he was gonna cry because you know….crying helps. IT REALLY DOES. But instead…he lashed out. Now…I wasn’t scared or mad while he was doing this. I was observing. Trying to figure and see how much pain this boy must have gone through and how much anger he has inside from all of it. I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND it now. But the thing is? You shouldn’t let your anger speak for you. Like I was always told, no matter how UNFAIR life may be? Just leave it in God’s hands and move on. I hope that my baby will understand that one day. I pray that he will have that humble heart and apologize and just move on you know? I mean who knows? Maybe the lord will touch the grandmothers heart to let him live in there again. I still feel like shit though because I was part of it. I just can’t believe it. Well….he’s in my living room now. Sleeping on the couch. Imma tell dad that I let him in because he had no place to go. He’s my friend in dad’s eyes and I know dad isn’t one to get mad at so yeah. It should be good. I think that Jord? He doesn’t like being talk to. His faults? He’ll realize but I think he’s just shame to admit and take the humble side. I hope and pray that he does because hard now yea? Its a struggle for him…..but im praying for him though =]