I let you have thy way….

Day 2 at the hospice with Grandma. And it looks like she’s getting worse…You know, I try to put things in a positive perspective as hard as I can. And yet, it does work but slowly but surely I just start to cry. She was everything. She was just like my mother. Last night, I didn’t even care how late it was. I just had to see her. As I went to inside the room, Janet was right there. I went straight to Grandma to give her a kiss. After I took a look at her face, honestly it was horrible. I knew that she was drifting away slowly. But the way she was going, was very bad. I knew exactly how painful it must be for her. But I never doubted how strong she was. Even though that recently found out that I wasn’t blood, I still knew her as my Grandmother. Because eversince the DAY I was born, she was by myside. 

And yet, I still question about why all of this happens to me. Hell yeah its a bitch, but shoot. Never do I doubt the lord. Just like Philippians 4:13. I can do all things through christ who strengtheneth me. I never will and don’t on planning to fall. Especially now. Its all in a matter of time. I believe. But I tell you one thing, this life now? may be a bitch, but in the end? I know and believe its gonna be worth it in the end. Alofa atua. Amene