lessons turned into something that is needed and its unexplainable when you ask why

today was the day. the day i learned something. what i needed to do. what i wanted that also equaled to what i needed to do. But then again the fear of it is only holding me back. My braddah’s funeral was the bomb. People showed up that i didn’t expect. Maybe those were signs from God that was trying to tell me what was MEANT to happen. I mean, Im getting used to of what is happening now. BUt i just don’t know why something else tells me to just keep on pushing and fighting to what i really want. I feel selfish for the first time, but this strong feeling just keep coming back. People i seen today at my braddah’s celebration is what triggered it to a great level. I only pray that if its right EVERY DAY. And every day it just keeps reminding me. I know it sounds kind of stupid but i dont know brah. Trials and tribulations only teach us things to live on and to keep on keeping on right? and today was one of those moments garuntee. 

My heart n love doesn’t change. And i don’t know why. My urge to get my prioritites done are at a great extent and I know i finally accomplish a few. But there is just this one that I know i need to fulfill for God. ANd its the same thing as my desire. I only pray that its true. I only pray that it gets easier at the days. But only God has that decision. But always know that I am here. I am keep on keeping on and I will always keep my promises. This goes out to family, friends, close freinds and loved ones. They say that its all gonna get better in the end? and i TRULY believe so. But i know that what i have to do is mostly the right thing. I just pray that the courage, faith and stregnth will help me.

Only God can help me on through this. And only he can fulfill my prayers. Know this though, I am always here for ANYBODY :) God bless and Good nite.

*for you vaiki boi. dis nite is for you  bro. keep mom safe up dea ah? watch ova her and US as well. Fa laia bro!*