December 2010
4 posts
I let you have thy way....
Day 2 at the hospice with Grandma. And it looks like she’s getting worse…You know, I try to put things in a positive perspective as hard as I can. And yet, it does work but slowly but surely I just start to cry. She was everything. She was just like my mother. Last night, I didn’t even care how late it was. I just had to see her. As I went to inside the room, Janet was right...
Feel like its gonna start all over again...
Tell me why am I not surprised? why Im back in the hospice again? As if it was only yesturday I was in here for Mom. And now? Im here for my Grandma. Kind of funny though, only a door down from where Mom’s room was at. Walking in the lounge area, I already was about to tear out. So many memories flew right past my mind. From the good, bad to the unbearable. As I was sitting next to gramz...
Lord you know all things, and I am never to...
Yeah, you can say it started the very day I was born. But honestly, never has it been THIS MUCH since the day my Mom was admitted to the hospice. From her slowly drifting away from my arms, to her passing, to meeting someone so special that I thought I could never lose up until now, to family disputes, to my braddah’s passing, and all else that comes and goes till I live I guess. Its a...
lessons turned into something that is needed and...
today was the day. the day i learned something. what i needed to do. what i wanted that also equaled to what i needed to do. But then again the fear of it is only holding me back. My braddah’s funeral was the bomb. People showed up that i didn’t expect. Maybe those were signs from God that was trying to tell me what was MEANT to happen. I mean, Im getting used to of what is happening...